Program?

Last year I purchased a Fit Lioness program and got fantastic results and since then I have been writing my own programs and have been cruising along. I guess that's the problem ... I've been cruising! I tried writing my goals, keeping training diaries, enter the body blitz comp again - the whole enchilada - but I keep on losing focus. I think when I got the program from Ness I put in that bit extra effort. I'm not sure if it was because I paid someone for their services so I wasn't going to waste it or if I didn't want to let her down to some degree (weird isn't it?). I think I will be buying a new program in the near future which is frustrating because I know I can do it myself.