Hi! My Name Is Michelle ...

... and I'm a procrastinator.  I have this bad habit of putting off things that I really don't want to do.  Look at me now; I'm blogging instead of working!  Normally I'm okay with it but then there are times when it catches up with me and sends me into a tailspin.  This week is one of those times.  It's Missy T's birthday and she wants a couple of her girlfriends over for a play/sleep over.  I don't have a problem with that except that the house looks like a bomb has hit it and the yard is, well I'm not even going into how the yard looks.

I've tried several things over the years: Flylady, Organised Housewife etc. but they never seem to stick.  I find it hard to squeeze in those extra few minutes a day through the week and the times I have tried to keep the house tidy I turn around and the 3 other cyclones that live in the house have messed it up again.  I wonder why I bother.

Anyway, the kidlets are on notice.  No tidy house, no sleepover.  Here's hoping it works.

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

The Good

I've done all my workouts this week even though I had plenty of opportunities to give one or two of them a miss.

It was my baby's 6th birthday. There is nothing more joyous than a child celebrating their birthday.

The Bad

Work is really giving me the sh!ts. The morons in management decided we are overstaffed and got rid of 3 people which is nearly 1/3 of our staff. Needless to say we are all incredibly stressed out trying to cope with the workload and the crap equipment.

Food hasn't been great. I was doing fine but by the week's end I blew out. I'd had a gutful of thinking about eating and preparing my food, somedays it can get so tiring. I think I'm just tired in general.

The Ugly

I had a pretty big meltdown on Wednesday and still not feeling that great. I feel like a bad wife, parent and employee. I'm not doing anything that well at the moment and have dropped a few balls. Moo was unfortunate enough to witness it, I don't cry that often and very rarely in front of the kids (except when I'm watching some sappy movie). Sometimes you just have to get it out of your system and then get on with life.

Anyway, that's been my week as up and down as it was. I hate negative posts, there are so many people out there that are dealing with a lot worse than I am so its time to toughen up.

Yes Boss!

I haven't been blogging too much lately. Partially due to the fact that I haven't got much to say - my life is work, training or sleeping and not much else - and a large part is that I haven't felt too positive and I'm sure people don't want to constantly hear me whinging.

I have had enough of work at the moment. I'm in a team that has one person in it that is a nasty piece of work. She is playing people off against one another and while I usually try to keep out of office politics I have been sucked into it. She had me quite upset last week and I've had to make the conscious effort to not allow this woman to drag me down.

I've also been worried about what to do with the girls through the holidays. We were looking at putting them into a childcare facility but at $40 per day per child we decided that we couldn't really afford it. I don't have a lot of leave so I will be taking a couple of days off, hubby's taking a week off and then his parents are going to have them as well. I realised last night that we have a pupil free day on the Monday back so I will have to organise something for then as well. I'm really trying not to complain about finding care throughout holiday as I feel its been our choice for me to work but there are days (especially when works not so good) when I think it would be a hell of a lot easier if I didn't work. I guess we are lucky that we have family here that can help out.

Well, wasn't that just the most positive post!