Recently I have allowed myself to wallow in self pity. My inner child has come out to play and I have had tantrums that because things don't come naturally to me, why should I bother. It would be easier to quit or to stick to things I know and am good at. Last week I finished last in a timed WOD, not by a couple of seconds but by a few minutes. I was glad I finished and didn't quit but at the same time I felt disappointed. I also feel like this when there are workouts that involve box jumps or anything with gymnastics (I have never, ever been able to do a handstand etc). I have to modify to suit my limited abilities. I guess it would be easier to quit but then I think of all the things that I have achieved that I never thought I could do. The thing with not having a particular talent for anything is that I am always getting better and the smallest improvements are massive for me.
Tonight's workout involves wall walks which terrifies me, only because I fear failure, but I'm not a quitter. I'll go and give them a try, if I can't do them, that's life, it only gives me something to improve upon.
2 comments:
I'm not familiar with CF but from the little I know its obviously REALLY TOUGH. Hats off to you for trying even when you think it might beat you :-)
The beauty with Crossfit is it can be scaled to my ability. I didn't do the wall walks, I gave it a try with the box but didn't feel comfortable with that either so the next scaling was floor walks.
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