Monday, December 17, 2012
A Happy Place
Firstly, I want to say that I'm proud of my achievements. I loved the process of competing but once I got off the stage I started picking myself apart. I had too much fat on my legs and my upper body leaned out too much. There are times when I haven't been able to even look at my comp photos. Despite being the leanest I have ever been I still wasn't happy ... it just wasn't enough.
As you can see I finished with a recent photo. I'm in a much better place. I don't have ripped abs or a quad sweep but my body is perfect ... it allows me to lift weights, run and jump. I want to show people that my worth isn't dependant on what a number says on a set of scales. The fact that I don't have a 6 pack doesn't mean I'm a bad or lazy person, it doesn't mean that I'm less disciplined than the me who competed. I want to make these people understand that. I was saying to my friend yesterday though that maybe they need to go through the process to get through to where I am now.